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He all,

It seems I have been MIA here lately:) 

I can't believe that in 1 more week my little baby will be a month old!!!! It seems sometimes that Seth has been with us for so much longer. I suppose carying him for 10 months contributes to that feeling:)

What has these last 3 weeks looked like in our house? Well, it's been a little crazy to say the least. I have a whole new respect for my friends that do the all-nighters AND homeschool there other children during the day!!! 

My little Seth is my little cuddle bug. He really prefers to be held by me or James than sleep anywhere else.'' AWWWW'' you might say.....well....it presents quite a challenge in meeting the needs of my toddler who, has now decided to enter the ''terrible twos''lol.  I think the hardest part of the last few weeks is seeing Jake's sin become more pronounced, and feeling so exhausted in training him. Just a part of  being a mother to a two year old  I suppose. Jake is doing wonderful loving on his brother! He loves to tickle him and kiss him and I find him ready and willing to push the paci back in Seth's mouth when he starts to fuss. He can tend to swing him very high in the baby swing ,,,,so we have to watch to make sure Seth doesn't fly out one day. Breastfeeding is going great! I am way more confident this time around with it and Seth seems to be a good eater. I have become quite the multi-tasker while nursing. I prefer to sit and just stare at my sweet Seth, but, every once in a while, I can surf the internet, fix Jake his lunch, read 10 thomas the train books in a row and cuddle with both boys, all while nursing:) 

Some days(or rather hours) I feel like I can do this mommy of two thing. Those times I am so very grateful To God  for my two blessings in my boys, and life seems to flow smooth. Then the next hour I am in tears wondering what were we thinking and how come I don't immediately ''feel'' God's grace at that moment. In those moments I am down on my knees, surrendering all to my Father. I am so weak and so dependent on Him for help to be the mother that He has called me to be. I cry out for patience and a tenderness that only the Lord can grant me when I want to be harsh and short with the children. I cry out for energy to continue to lovingly train my two year old when all I want to do is turn my head and pretend I didn't see it. I cry out for help when I have been up for 3-4 hours straight at night trying to figure out why my baby is crying. Yes, it has been a challenging season here in my home and heart, BUT, Its these times that I most feel God's presence in my life. Oh how He has cared for me! He has answered my prayers for help, He has given me energy to love and care for my babies. He has even used His word to speak to me in the quiet moments in the wee hours of the morning! Oh , how FAITHFUL He has been. Every day gets better and better. I am learning more and more how to balance my time and care for each child. I love my boys so much and today  even had thoughts of having another one*GASP*  

Saturday's are good. James is home and we feel like a big family. James has really been the model husband/father. He has taken up so much of what I can't do right now. He is basically glued to Jake caring for his needs on the weekend. He serves in so many ways without me having to ask. Maybe one day I will do a post on all the ways my husband loves/cares for me. It would be quite a long post:)

Well, I think that covers just about everything. Hopefully it won't be too long before my next post. I have not taken any good pictures of the boys. It seems to be quite a challenge to get good ones or even remember to take them. But when I do, I will make sure to post. Thanks for all the phone calls I have received and to all my friends who I have yet to have a full conversation with, thanks for being patient when I can't return a call as quickly as I used too....I miss you all:)  Thanks for the meals we received from so many dear friends and most of all, Thanks to everyone who prayed for a healthy , beautiful baby boy! God has been so very good to us!!!!!!